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i think this was one of the first weekends where i just sat around and did absolutely nothing. tho it was good to chill out and relax, it's not to say that loneliness never sets in. for the past few months i've been keeping busy and going out and getting smashed on the weekends... for most of this weekend i'd been just sitting around the house. started reading a book, would chat with friends here and there. but yea. i guess the solitude gave me time to think and made me realize what i miss most back home. family & friends. i've really only been here for 3 months. it's starting to set in that i'll prob be here for a while and that my stay here isn't all fun and games. i've made a few friends, but it's definitely not the same as hangin with friends you've known for years and years.

for me it all boils down to the simplicities in life that seem so redundant when you have them, but once you don't, you find yourself longing for those very things and moments that are so easily taken for granted. i have to say this experience is definitely an experience of growth. at 29 years of age, i don't know how much more growing there is to do, but apparently it's far from nearing the end. at times it can be overwhelming, looking back and realizing that i've really made it 29 years of life. and that makes looking beyond the present that much more daunting...